I was on my phone in the dark when a spider crawled on me. I was wearing a silk head scarf and the fan was blowing so at first I couldn’t differentiate the sensation until I felt something race to my chest. Thankfully had my flashlight and looked down to see a spider small but still big enough for its legs to wrap around a finger.
I was oddly calm. Managed to get it off. But when I hurried to turn on the light and look for something to eliminate it, it disappeared.
You want to know what’s crazier? I once found a grey spider three times it’s size chilling next to my thigh behind me once. Of course I screamed and it shot across the room in seconds. You know those long legged fast moving ones. Gunned it down with my water flosser before my mom finished it off with a broom when it escaped into the kitchen.
I think I am getting desensitized to spiders. They always come into my room and choose to try me at night or in the early morning. I always feel reluctant to kill them these days but its like this room ain’t big enough for the two of us you know?
I know spiders aren’t hostile and that’s probably why I kept my calm and waited for it to crawl off this time but the thought of it coming back and biting me in my sleep left me paranoid.
It was a brown spider and it doesn’t exactly look like a brown recluse but how could I remember exactly anyway?
I was praying for something and after looking up the meaning of the spider again I feel like I got an indirect answer. I think I keep getting the same answer, its just a matter of me to continue pressing on and executing it. Sometimes you get so caught up trying to be productive you don’t make time for the soul.
“The spider spirit animal reminds you that good things happen for those who wait. While we live in an immediate gratification culture, the spider reminds us that patience and self-governance are how we create and get what we want in life.”
I also watched a sermon touching on the same subject of culture. What are the odds?
Everytime I look up the reading of a spider it means many things. It said something specifically about it being a good thing if you stop freaking out and not kill it instinctively and I never thought I would get to that level but I kind of did today.
I don’t believe in spirit animals but I do believe often when I pray God sends me spiders/bugs, but mostly spiders. It doesn’t matter where I am come night time a spider is always trying to pull up on me. I usually catch them speeding into my room or chilling next to me, never had one run across me that is a first.
In the past I had prayed wanting to be close to God and the person preaching told me to go outside the church and knock, and keep knocking and to watch what I say because my words have power. Now he continues to send me spiders as they essentially mean to be patient. But jot only that spiders are said to be good at manifesting. I have also noticed that I seem to manifest things myself. Which is why I need to watch my feelings and emotions and especially what I say and think.